The sensitive topic, BONUS!!

I never know what is so sensitive what bonus. I am been thinking to blog this topic out or not. I still decide to blog it out since I am not planning to let my collegue knows this blog. :)

Back to the topic. I used think if you work hard, your bosses will give you good bonus. The last time naive me think very simple way. Or maybe those not working as hard will get lesser bonus. However, after working, I know things are not it seems like so simple, in the evil adult working world, your PR skill must be good and also in boss's good books. Just like one of my collegue, Ms J. (Sorry real names will not be disclosed)

To me, she is not that hardworking. She can talk on the phone with her bf and smoke 1 - 2 times per working day. Nowadays she facebook and surf net. I do snake during work but apparently, her bonus will still be more than me. I am not comparing amount but the month. 1st year I got lesser because it is my first year. 2nd year I got half a month lesser than her and 3rd year I still got half a month lesser.

Does it mean that I am not working as hard as her? It just shows that working hard is not the only thing that decides your bonus. Anyway, we are not as close as before already. Not really because of the bonus that I am bitter. It is actually her way of working. I seriously think she need to do something. I dun like her when she say I dun know how to do As built drawing. HELLO!! Do I look like I know? I only learned it when I worked here. Slowly, I start to not be kind hearted and hard working.

This year, as expected, my bonus is still lesser than her by half month. Her pay is of course higher than me. Hence, the amount she got I dun really want to compare but I think my co. should really be a bit fair to me. But then again, bonus is supposed to be private and confidential. So I am really considering to change job if I have a better one.